99th Post

 Writing in today on the 5th of April 2022 and Blogger.com reminded me that this will be my 99th post.

Thus before I continue , I will like to dedicate a short statement for my past self :

"Dear Past Me, Thank you for being such enduring , hold such strength to pick yourself up from the countless physical and mental abuse for the past years and am really thankful for you for not ending your life. For if it happens, I will not be here doing the things you once set up to do . "

Things have been looking very great recently , excellent actually. Im finally able to be a lil truly happy and greatful of what I have now. I have my dad, and my close friends who support me mentally and heartly. 

As I am writing this 99th post on blogger.com , it reminds me of the 3am post that i wrote previously in the state of mental breakdown , where i am on the venge of breaking down and ending my life. Now that i think back of it , i realise that all i needed atleast was a vent outlet and blogger.com was the outlet for me. 

Everyone have a different way to vent their worries , stress and more but i guess mine is writing a blog haha.

Nonethless , I really want to thanks my Faith for saving me. My dreams about hanging out with my late mum and the dream I had of a future with less discrimination and more humanity.

For today , I am truly happy on where I am now. I will never give my life up for anything. And if there is a next life, i dont mind living through all the traumas i had as it cultivate me to who I am now.

Dear Jingru , I am glad you make it this far and Dear Michelle, fight on little one. Have Faith in the future , I look forward too seeing you again. 

Signing off,

Jingruus