Recently felt that every single human have some mental health condition and it is Normal. Only the severity of it that differs from person to person. I don't believe any single one that proclaim they are perfectly healthy in their own mind . Everyone have their demon and devil. Just rather they want to let others see or not. Sometime the emotions they bottle up explode, and thus causing them to react in extreme behavior aka behavior that are not like their usual self.
If I were to relate to my past toxic self, I will say its between 2017 - late 2020 . I was on self-destruction mode ( doing anything that will harm myself lol ) and ever thought to make plans to leave any of my fortune to my dad lol. aka i make sure the paper work of the house purchase was done before anything happens to me LOL
But then i thought to myself if i were to self-destruct then it will make those that ever caused harm to me happy that they inflicted that much of emotional and physical pain to me that I will self-destruct.
That's not fair . I don't owe them my life. I only ever owe my life to my late mother and my father. So instead I turn that hatred and my intense power of self destruct and channel it to a passion that will create a positive impact instead lol. I find that it is very effective because every hatred and hate I get now just powered my energy lol . As in not to do harm , but to do what I'm passionate about.
And If Faith could save me I hope Faith could save all too.
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